Friday, June 21, 2013

(Saying) my name


I had a name
I heard you
Say it
I remember it
rolling off of your lips
like sweet sticky peach juice
after that first bite
tried to capture it again
tried to pull it back into your mouth
and you found that
you could not
it had become a drop
it had fallen to the ground
attracting hungry ants
with all of its sugary splendor
and they consumed 
what they did not know
was my name
having fallen sweetly 
from your lips

I had a name
until you changed it
and you said it
with heat and fire
aflame on an arrow
meant to pierce my heart
but it hit the bone
and burnt the marrow
and I began to die
Please,
do not utter my name
for it is not safe 
in your mouth
where flames char the vowels
and crisp the consonants
Please, 
forget my name
for it is not safe
in your mouth

Now, I long for One
to change my name
Sarah and Sarai
Mara and Naomi
Esther and Hadassah
What shall my name be
I know I have a new name
over in glory 
...and it's mine
     ...all mine
But Dear God
when You change my name
say my name
on the wind
say my name 
on the stars
say my name 
in the voice of a child
say my name
in the loving tenor of a man
say my name
on moon's bright beams

Oh Dear God
say my name
on blades of grass
and petals of tulips
say my name 
in syrup and in honey
say my name 
in rain's pelting drops

Oh, My God
say my name
call me
over and over
say my name
over and over

But Oh My God
my soul cries
for You to say my name
when You say
You Love Me
so I will know
it's me
to whom You speak
when You say my name
in water, wind and sacrament

Carla, I love you
so do this in remembrance of Me
Though you cannot say My Holy Name
Carla, I love you
for you keep My Holy Name
safe in your mouth
Carla, I love you
and I have called you 
by name
I have called you by 
your new name
My Beloved
in this, hear and know
you are mine
and you are loved

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